Soliloquy Collection
Patrícia Scoralick
I thought
My dreams were lost
That it was too late for all of this
But a light shone upon me
And brought me here
Now, feel the energy
Of my music flowing right where you are
This is the frequency
Of a new beginning for someone
Who learned to live, not just exist
My solilóquio collection
Is my autobiography set to music
I turned my journey into song
From the very start to right now
To those who thought they knew me
You didn't even know the tip of the iceberg
And here I am, soaring higher every day
I could talk about so much I've been through
But there's a difference between singing and justifying
I no longer feed the curiosity
Of those who don't wish me well
I learned to step away
From those who subtract without adding a thing
Go ahead and judge me
But the unfollows I hit on insta
Reflect the tears I cried all alone–
The ten hours in a hospital bed
Waiting for surgery
Without receiving a single message
Not even a hi, how are you?
They reflect the seizures
I've had throughout my life
Dismissed as nothing more than
She's used to it, it was nothing
Me, recovering all by myself
While everyone else just went on with their lives
Ooh life is cause and effect
Ooh life is cause and effect
Ooh life is cause and effect
Ooh life is cause and effect
I realized I was the one allowing all of this
I gave a platform to those who belittled me
To the people who told me to work a supermarket
Checkout while I was finishing my phd
To those who reduced my neurodivergence
To being financially and emotionally dependent
I took responsibility
Shedding the role of the victim
And choosing instead to play the villain
The one who succeeded in life and went it alone
But what the judges don't see
Are the pains I carried all alone
The rock bottom I hit all alone
The failures and the thousand fresh starts, all alone
People forget, or pretend to forget
The times they treated me with contempt
Ignored me while I spoke
Crossed the street when I walked by
Left me out of the good parties
Called me a bad thing or a nuisance
Yeah, believe it uncensored
That's what this song should have been called
I changed it, it used to be starting over
But that would've been too obvious, and unfair
To the weight those words carry
An absolute outpouring born of brutal honesty
From a neurodivergent person without a diagnosis
Who learned to survive even while in pieces
I thought
My dreams were lost
That it was too late for all of this
But a light shone upon me
And brought me here
Now, feel the energy
Of my music flowing from where you are
This is the frequency
Of a new beginning for a soul
That learned to live, not just exist
My soliloquy collection
Is my autobiography set to music
I turned my journey into song
From the beginning until now