In The Static (Unreleased)
Mitski
I hear the TV bleed at night
Soft voices chewing through the light
I press my ear against the wall
To feel like I exist at all
You left your shadow in my bed
It curls up where you used to rest
I try to wash it from the sheets
But it just stains me when I sleep
And I, I want it to be seen
There's just something in between
You're hunger and you leaved
So I held still
Like I did in a half-light dream
That you loved me quietly
Like something you don't keep
There's honey dripping from my throat
Every word I never spoke it sticks
It burns, it pulls me down
A sweetness that I'm gonna drown in now
You say my name like it's a chore
Like you said better ones before
I try to make my body small
So you won't mind me there at all
But I, I wanted to be warm
Not just sleep from many storms
You never meant to fall
So I stay soft
Like a bruise you couldn't see
Let you press your weight on me
Like I was meant to be
Break me slow like you don't want to know
There's a person in the glow of the screen light on my bones
And when I go, I'll dissolve into the noise
Just another broken voice you won't notice in the void
But I, I wanted to be real
Something you could touch and feel
Not disappear on cue
Still I wait
In the static in between
If you ever look for me
I'll be gone before you do