catharsis
Audrey Gillispie
Time hasn't moved in a while
My sister is the only thing that makes me smile
She says that I should move on, but you know I can't
Saving my tears on a file
To show you the damage when you get hostile
And I know that I should move on, but I never can
And maybe if I was lucky
It would just hit me, then I'd be alright
But this keeps staying at the front of my mind
Destroyed myself to keep your wishes
Your scaring tactics never missed
And when you think about me like I know you do
Remember, I was close to you
Forcing me into a silence
My attitude was too much, but excuse his violence
I was threatened with an army, but I'm just one man
Gave you your friends, is this how you thank me?
Faking content, everything's how it should be
Now I'm a mess, trying to comprehend
Though, maybe if I was different, you would've listened
Then I'd be alright
But this keeps staying at the front of my mind
I was in a mental prison
It doesn't take some magic vision to see how they broke me
And how they made me blue, while I was also close to you
I felt like I was going crazy
For a year I questioned sanity
And I don't wanna see you begging on your knees
Whenever you end up like me
I try and try to distract myself
But I want an eye for an eye
'Cause you put me through hell
You made me lose my mind, and at the same time I lost myself
But I still wish you well
But I still wish you well
Hmm, hmm
Hmm, hmm, hmm
Destroyed myself to keep your wishes
Your scaring tactics never missed
And when you think about me like I know you do
Remember I was close to you
Destroyed myself, myself, myself
I wish you hell, you hell, you hell
And when you think about me like I know you do
Remember I was